Wednesday, April 28, 2010
My Secret Double Life
I live a secret, double life. No, I am not a CIA agent or cheating on my husband. I am a “Robsten Shipper”. You guys all know me as “RobstenLover” or RL, a staff member here at RobstenLove.com, and as an ardent supporter of both Rob and Kris. The “Real World” knows me another way. Many would be shocked to know that I am not only a fervent “Twilight” fan, but also a “shipper” of a real-life couple known as “Robsten”. I think I can count on my right hand the number of times I have actually said the word “Robsten” out loud – it’s usually in my mind.
To family, friends, and colleagues, I am known as a master’s degree holding, working executive. I have a pretty fantastic job for a luxury women’s clothing brand, I am a mom to an energetic 3-year-old, and I am really active in fundraising for several charities. My friends would say I am a cultural “snob” of sorts, considering my tastes and my history. They would die if they knew I loved Twilight as much as I do, and if I mention the saga they scoff. They have no idea I’ve read the series 7 time a piece (ok, minus Breaking Dawn but that’s a whole other blog post). At a wedding recently amongst several academic elitists, someone asked about “New Moon” and if that “Robert Patterson” was good in it. Another added, “Yeah but that girl seems like a bitch.” I had to correct my friend and say “It’s Pattinson,” and to the Kristen critic I replied, “She’s awesome in it.” I wanted to go on, but my husband stopped me and pulled me to the bar.
My husband is the only one who has any inkling to my Robsten Shipping life, but not the full extent. He knows I love Twilight. Does he know I “ship” a real life couple? No. He thinks RobstenLove.com is a forum and blog about Twilight, not Robsten. He wouldn’t know what a Robsten is! He calls it “Silly vampire stuff”. When I first joined the team I told him that I had a “vampire draft”, likening it to his fantasy football leagues and that I was choosing Edward in the first round. He has come to terms with the fact that Rob is our laptop desktop photo. He thinks it’s weird that I have “online friends” that I’ve never met, and that I would rather hangout with them than him or my “real life” friends sometimes. He laughs at the incessant typing and “twittering”. He tolerates my shopping lists and “To Do” lists on Twilight stationary. But does he know that I went to the Today show to stalk out Rob? No. Does he know that I skipped work early the very same day to go see Rob on the Jimmy Fallon Show? No. But he does hold it over my head that he will tell our friends what I do in my spare time at home.
It’s hard having a double life. I wish I could talk freely with friends, or even my sister about Robsten. I hate having to lie or cover when I am doing something Robsten or Twilight related. When asked by strangers on the train what I am reading on the kindle, I lie and say “The New York Times” or “The Wall Street Journal”. How could I say I am reading “Master of the Universe”? When I am caught on my blackberry checking twitter for news, I lie and say I’m checking the stock quotes or my work email. When a hot photo of Rob hits my inbox from one of the girls and a huge smile appears on my face, I lie and cover. Sad, I know.
Recently, I have been taking steps to come out of the “Robsten” closet, only because it’s becoming harder and harder to hide in there. My mom recently picked up the series and is addicted already. She’s been asking all the Twi-Virgin questions about the books. It’s hard going on and on and not disclosing what I know and getting excited about it. I shared my movies with her, and she loves them, and loves Rob, and “that pretty girl who plays Bella.” My cousin follows me on twitter and, well, since 95% of what I tweet about is Robsten-related, I am sure she knows I am a shipper. I recently joined our fantastic Facebook page, and I guess if anyone was that interested in me and did their research, they would know that I am a member of the forum and a fan.
This past weekend a family battle almost ensued over Robsten. I had dinner with my brother and sister. The subject of Eclipse came up, and I was already working on bribing my sister into joining me when it opens in June. First, my brother didn’t know that Rob was British?! And that he was in Harry Potter?! And proceeded to say he was “different looking”. Then, my sister said, “Is he dating that Kristen girl? She’s gross. He’s better off with that Leighton girl.” I lost it. I officially could not contain myself! I blurted out, “That is a lie! He’s been in Budapest and London. And Kristen is amazing and fierce!” I continued to ramble on defending Kristen and boldly declared that Rob is going to be a bigger-deal than Brad Pitt someday.
I am not sure how much longer I can keep this up. It’s a bit exhausting at times. And really, why should I hide something that I love and enjoy? But the majority of the time I like having this world all to myself. I like having something that I don’t have to share with others and can enjoy all by myself. It’s fun. It’s exciting. It’s an excellent escape from my “Mommy Duties”, work responsibilities, and real life expectations. I understand why Rob and Kris have yet to come out officially as a couple. It’s nice to keep some things private. Privacy is a rare con
cept these days.
LOLOL, loved it, RL! I laughed so hard out loud when I read "That is a lie! He’s been in Budapest and London. And Kristen is amazing and fierce!” Too CUTE!!! I just imagine your sister and brother staring blankly at you, their other sister who suddenly seems unrecognizable to the both of them. HILARIOUS! ROFLMFAO!!! Wonderful job, BB!
Great post! I can totally relate to your pains with hiding the obsession. The other day my sister told me that I speak & defend Robert and Kristen as they are my friends…
It is difficult to stay in the closet, LOL
RL, I am so there with you. I'm so deep in the closet. My friends know that I'm a twilight fan, but don't realize how much I really love it. A few know I have a "thing" for RPattz, but no one, not even my fiance (that I live with) knows I am a Robsten shipper. I try not to even tweet about it too much, even though most of the people I follow are for Robsten related news. And just like you, my fiance thinks the forum is twilight related!! (from iheartrobsten, forum member =P)
OMG…RL I loved your post! God how I can realate. Not many know of my Robsten and Twi addiction at all..Not my sisters..cause they would laugh at me..and not my friends. Hubby is pretty much the only one that is aware..and he has been pretty great about it. Loved when you talked about lying about what you read on your kindle…fanfic is a whole other guilty pleasure! But I do love that I have met so many wonderful people online that share the same experiences and guilty pleasures as I do..I wouldn't change it for the world. RL I loved this post..it made me laugh and realize we are all in the same boat..and its great to know I'm surrounded by all you great people!
awesome post rl! i am done denying it to my friends..so i guess i came out..do i get teased..hell yea but when im around strangers..oh hell i am all proper lol..it is fun
OMG, RL! LMAO…what a funny post! I so agree with you on this. The lying abt reading MotU is a win! hahahaha….
by the way, my hubs and kids also know I'm crazy over Robsten! I'm actually closer to some of my online friends in RLC compare to my real-life friends now. The only thing my hubs doesnt know is I read NC-17, M rated Twilight lemons. I'm sure he's wondering why I'm such a perv now! LoL
-Lins-
Lol. That was a hilarious post. My husband knows and thinks I am nuts and that is enough for me
. All he really knows is that I like to read "stories" online and review them. He has no idea that I actually am sitting here tonight anxious as heck because I know they will be reunited soon enough. Sheesh…. the secret life of Robsten Shippers isn't easy but is sure is fun!
LOL, I LOVED this post!! I saw a bit of myself in you… and I wonder how many people out there are closeted fans as well… I just try and act cool, like it's not killing me spending a whole weekend on the beach without internet so I can check the forum. The sad thing is I don't even like Twilight that much, my addiction is more Rob and Kristen. My boyfriend knows I find Rob "atractive" (pffff) and I dragged him to watch New Moon, but other than that, nobody knows that I spend too many hours reading fanfic and hoping for Robsten news. Sometimes I suspect some of my friends are crazy fans like me, but don't know how to ask, and the only person I can actually talk about them is my 14 year-old cousin, and only superficially, I don't wanna scare her with my level of obsession!! hahahaha
But, I love them, and it makes me so happy that I don't care if it's normal or not… Luna_San, forum member
I totally understand how u feel…well i guess i live a double life too..??? I'm really gonna explode someday..
ME TOO……. SOBRAN LAS PALABRAS… FELICIDADES Y SE FELIZ….
PD. ME PARECE Y KRIS LLEVA EL COLLAR QUE ANTES SE DIJO ERA DE ROB DESDE HARRY POTTER Y UN ANILLO EN SU DEDO MEDIO QUE LO TRAE DESDE EL REGRESO DE SU CUMPLEAÑOS, LO NOTARON EN LA FIESTA DE LACOSTE.. NO SE? USTEDES DEBEN DE SABER MAS… CARIÑOS
Loved your post RL, I giggled through the whole thing! Even though some of us are closeted R/K shippers, isn't it great that we all have this awesome forum to come to and share our love of Robsten?! I've made some good friends here ( kinda seems funny to say that about people I've never met, from all over the globe,)but it's nice to know we all feel the same. We are sort of like a big Robsten Loving family!
I really need to read MOTU, I'm so out of the ff loop! 
Again, great post!!
I can imaging how you are felling. I have the feeling, that I´m to old beeing addicted to robsten and twilight-stuff. It´snice to see, that I´m not alone. Thanks for writing your exsperiences ( sorry… my english… bad).
Oh RL, I love you!
I agree to every word of your great post!
It is in fact much easier to admit to be a Robsten shipper. I know that because some month ago I decided to have my "coming out". lol
Maybe not everybody can understand my obsession, but at least I can talk about it and don´t have to hide anymore!
And of course nobody really knows how deep my passion is…
Wow, are you realy talking about YOUR life? It's mine. This is exactly my life. I'm shocked and relieved to read that at the same time. Honestly, it feels good to know there are others "outside" with the same thoughts and feelings. Thank you.
I'm so with you- I'm a professional woman 2 children- obsessed.
Thankyou for this post. Thankyou.
susie004
am thankful my husband and my daughter knows that i am an avid fan of robsten.
I love your blog and I'm also a Robsten Shipper from China. We have a huge group of Robsten Shippers and I'm gonna show them your blog. I'm sure they will like it because we love Robsten!!
Your story is MY story. Even down to the DH using a possible 'reveal' as a bargaining tool! Also dying to share on the one hand, but happy to have my secret world too..?!?
Great post – ta!
I hide my Robstenning plenty, as well. But it makes me happy
Hi! I love your post and it made me smile.
I've realized that I am not alone being obsessed with Robsten… 
The bigger our sites get the less fun he makes of me lol My husband that is. However, I can't IMAGINE having to hide this from him. I just couldn't do it. Great job bb!
OMG RL…I am officially in love with you. Been there, done that! I haven't been able to talk to anyone in real life seriously, because no one cares as much as I do. I used to be able to talk to my son, but even he has since turned on me, with his whole "turning 11 pre-teen" phase
It is exhausting, but sometimes not worth the battle to argue with those who are just plain ignorant to the Love Story we all know as Robsten.
Awesome POST!!!
-chicky
Great story RL! My hubs, kids, friends and family know about my Robsten obsession. They actually call me when they hear rumors to ask if they are true! LOL! Thank God I don't have to hide it. And I have my Robsessed sister (who has actually converted to Robsten recently) to squee with on a daily basis as well as my online Robsten family! Your secret life is safe with us bb!
I loved it. Sometimes I feel just like you. I have a 17 year old daughter that doesn't Kristen and we argue a lot, because I always protect Kristen and she is becoming jealous of her.
oh RL! this is a very touchy, inner-conflict-confession blog. you are amazing!i can relate to you so much i dont have to write my own blog esp if someone's throwing trash talks to our dear robsten! i too switched to defensive mode to the nth level..haha must be our love for both of them.
I could have written this same thing word for word. I also have some real life people on my twitter. I'm lucky they don't keep up with it because if they saw my timeline over the past few months they would certainly question my health.
It's so good to know others share our love for these two.
P.S. I have never uttered the word "Robsten" verbally:)
THIS SFM. I too lead a double life. And I have to bite my tongue when people talk about Rob or Kristen because they so obviously know nothinng, whereas I (thanks to RobstenLove.Com) am very very informed. LOL One of my coworkers does not like Kristen, and it's very hard for me to defend her without coming unglued, and going on a rant. One of these days, If fear I will do exactly that. My husband knows about my Stew twitter and my love for this site, and doesn't really question it. But nobody else has a clue. Oh well.
I can relate 100%. Every single word. Thank you for sharing
and after reading the comments section at least I'm not alone.
Share the exact feeling with u~~~~ I'm a working woman and a few years older than Rob & Kris. I'm from Aisa and in my city there are not so many twilight fans. And I hesitate a lot before clicking to "like" Robsten's page on facebook. I'm afraid that my friends would think that I am childish. I bought the books, DVDs and chase news on Robsten everyday. So hard to high my obsession, especially to Kristen. That girl is awesome!
I do this too. I lie most of the time when I'm asked what I'm doing. I have no friends that actually know me in 3D on Twitter. It's my internet friends place, where I can talk to people about Grey's mostly. Live Journal is my Robsten/Twilight/Grey's Anatomy talk place as well. I write for a Grey's Anatomy Blog. Only a few people know I do this. I'm absolutely obsessed with the show. I have been since it began. Most of all, I write MerDer reviews. Absolutely addicted to them.
Only my boyfriend and my sister know that I'm obsessed with Robsten. Though I don't talk about them much with them. I'm an obsessed Robsten lover, and my hiding place is online as well.
If I reveal this obsessed side of me for such things… people will think I'm insane. I'm constantly on twitter, facebook, live journal, gossip/blogs/forums to do with Robsten/Kris/Rob/Twilight. I've read the books at least 4 times each. Seen the movies so many times… I've lost track of how much I've watched Twilight. I stay up late at night scouring the internet for videos, picture, and interviews to do with them.
I'm glad I can hide hear and rant and rave about the things I'm passionate about. But I do feel sad that I can't shout I LOVE ROBSTEN from the roof tops sometimes.
It also sucks that some people online know be better than people in 3D life do. But hey, i guess that's what happens when you meet kick ass ppl from other countries. The internet is great for that. Also people to back me up when idiots talk crap about Rob/Kris.
The hiding is sometimes problematic. But I guess, since society isn't accepting of people who love Robsten as much as we do… here I shall stay.
RL, I Love your story! The timing could not be better. I'm 28 and for the past two years only my hubs has known the extent of my obsession, purely due to how much he gets ignored in favour of fanfic, staring at pics/vids of R&K;, obsessive tweeting & re-reading the books etc.
A colleague of mine had recently borrowed the Twilight & New Moon DVD's from me and then promptly declared she was in love with Rob (can't blame her). After listening to a few days of "did you know this about Rob" and "how annoying is this Kristen Stewart girl" I finally snapped and "came out" following the same colleague declaring the Rob had outted Robsten to the Guardian paper, me saying "no he didn't" and this argument going back and forth for quite some time.
So now they all know and it feels quite weird, they clearly think I'm nuts! Plus it has made me realise quite how much ridiculous info I know about our fave pair, kinda wish I'd kept quiet… x
Thank you for sharing. It is an awsome blog. It is great to know that I am not alone with this Robsten obession.
Awesome post! Obviously, many of us can related. I, too, keep this little hobby of mine on the DL. My husband has no clue. He knows I like Twilight, but that's about it. My sister knows I like Twilight and fanfic (got her addicted to the fic too… LOL), but knows nothing about my other online activities. And, like you, I enjoy having something that's all my own. I love the friendships that I've forged with the lovely ladies (and unicorn) at RLC. I'm still amazed at how Twilight has brought us all together, and so very glad it has.
xoxo
Dana
It's my first time here. I'm from Brazil, so, please, forgive my English. I loved this post! I'm 45 years old! Can you believe that I'm a Robsten fan too? I think they're great together and I truly hope that they can survive in all this crazyness that their lives turned to be.
I so can relate- also have a master's degree & am a cultural snob. I have to hide my giddy robsten shipperness around RL people. They just don't understand!
Umm did you just describe my life…I totally feel your pain I had to bribe a friend to come to the Runaways with me and when i went to pick up my Fandango tickets the additional tickets I had purchased for the two showings on the Sunday were printed as well. She was so disgusted I was going to the same movie three times. I mumbled something about thinking Kristen was awesome and really loving Joan Jett. Embarassing. My husband just laughs at me now and knows not to interrupt when I am reading my 'stories' aka FF and has just accepted that i will see any Rob or Kristen movie more than once at the cinema. He pinkie swore not to tell anyone that i bought three copies of NM, I didn't have the heart to tell him I bought 4 – the shame. Great article!
it's great to know that i'm not a wierd person, that all my feelings and lifestyle are 'normal', cause it's many of us and you describe it very close to life. Thank you!!!
LOL I'm so glad I'm not the only one. Loved the post RL!
She's younger then me lol
Just today a friend came to visit and I took my Rob poster down cos I thought she would think me crazy for having it over my bad. It went right up once she left.
My sis knows but I can't talk to her cos she didn't read the book. But she said it's nice that I'm passionete about something.
I'm lucky I have my friends on FB with whom I shared many obsessions. I can swoon with them and talk with them over Twilight, Rob and Kristen.
And of course the RL forum. So happy to have you guys.
I love this post! I am slowly coming out of the closet myself so I can TOTALLY relate to so much of this! I lit'rally laughed out loud quite a few times! So much fun to read! Excellent, bb! <3 u!
Love it! I feel like you are telling my story too! I'm slowly learning to fly my own Twilight flag to the world.
Great post RL!
I can't relate though. My Twilight/Robsten obsession is not a secret to anyone. I don't hide it because honestly I don't see anything wrong with it. It's all for fun sakes =)
I love your post. My very close friends and family know my love for Twilight and know I read fanfiction. I only had to tell them because they were getting upset that I spent so much time reading in my room. "If I finished reading the Twilight Saga, what on earth was I reading?" So, I told them. They think it's sorta weird but I have gotten two of my close friends (one male, one female) to read two fanfiction stories. But it is hard when people ask me what I do for "fun" or what I read. I am just happy that I have my twitter family that are also going through this. Great post.
I love it!! I was laughing so hard reading this post. I too am a closet shipper. Luckily, I have my younger sister to talk to about this. Both our husbands think we're crazy. My husband knows I surf the net for Kristen Stewart news. He too doesn't know what Robsten is. If he knew the extent to which I seek Robsten info, and how frequently, I think his amusement would definitely turn into disappointment. I am a early-30's dentist, my husband is a physician. We have prided ourselves with exposing our 3 kids to various cultures and frequent museums and ethnic resaurants. Did I ever think I would be into twilight? Never. I watched the first movie on DVD on a whim, months after it came out. and I. was. hooked… My daughter often asks what "work" I am doing during our afternoon quiet time while the baby sleeps. I'm reading fanfiction as she reads her story book. I have made the mistake of mentioning my love for all things twilight to my friends, who are a mix of doctors, dentists, businesswomen, and teachers. Their blank stares and wide eyes taught me never to do THAT again. I'm so glad I can connect with fellow shippers online! Love your blog.
Closet, Robsten, MotU, twilights' and robstens' knowledge to share…RL you describe EXACTLY my life. It´s good to know that i'm not alone hahahaha.
Love you all in this far planet who i can share with. =)
OMFG I love you people!! This post describes me perfectly too! I've been following Robsten for a year, lurking over at Ted's place, checking out all the links people post there and a few twitters (though I don't twitter myself). I have never commented on anything online ever, or been a follower, fan or "shipper" of anyone or any couple. But, goddamn, I love me some Robsten!! Can I be part of this club too?
I know how you feel as well! I hide my obsession from everyone but my best friend, whom is also obsessed! Its nice to know we are not alone
No one in RL knows of my obsession. I will admit to have read the books and seen the movies, but I pretend it's only because I keep up with pop culture. My husband knows I like Twilight (he's seen me read the books often enough), but has no idea I follow these two actors like a fool, or that I belong to a private shipping site. He thinks it's a parenting site, lol. I'm not putting my name here because some of you might recognize it, and I need to keep the two worlds completely separate!
LOL, i never laugh so hard. i totally understand you, im in kinda in the same situation. Reading this sometimes me thinks, how many of us out there are really in the closet. But i'm just happy that there is a place for ladies like us, and supporting together about being a fan of Rob and Kris.
Thank you for writing your story. That’s the reason why I like lurking here. Sometimes, it is hard to ship them because of all the negativity, so coming to this cheerful, supportive site helps. It’s nice reading about people sharing the same feelings. My sister will say in passing that they are a cute couple, but that’s it for her. For me, I’m totally addicted to them (checking on info about them morning, noon, and night) and I’ve yet to tell anyone. Like someone commented on one of the hundreds of Youtube videos on R/K, they are like crack. Oh, here and there I give out tidbits of information about them or defending them. But it’s subtle, I know how to hide my obsession. Now, I kind of understand how people can become addicted to online gambling or porno (ok, I like good, clean Robsten “porno”). I will never know them personally, but they always put a smile on my face when I see them separately or together, so with that, I can only hope they both will have long, happy and successful lives.
I loved this esp the RL moment where you lost it…yeah I tried to hide but I don't. They know about my twi love and semi about my Rob/Kristen love but I don't think they know the extent. Like they will never know I write RPF they think I just write silly little stories of fanfic. :Sighs: Thank you for sharing your hidden closet story.
oh my god this is me!!it was like me writing that post!!although my bf is starting to get worried about my obsession with Rpatz and the fact that im a krisbian I dont think he has any idea about how deep it goes!!love love this post!
I am so happy to see that i am not alone! Everyone knows i am obsessed with Twilight- but only 1 other person knows of my love for all things R & K. I am obsessed with Rob and his relationship with Kristen- they are perfect! One of the girls i work with is exactly like me- we r nurses and work with cancer patients (depressing at times)- but if you saw us when we talk about anything R & K- we light up!! People have got to think we are crazy (and i guess we are, huh?) Both of husbands know a smidgen about our obsession- but if he ever found my Rob porn stash and all my favorite websites, etc- he would probably have me commited! Anyway- thanks for sharing your "in the closet story"- good to know we are not alone!
OMG! RL this is a wonderful and enlightening post… it makes me feel all the more welcome in the forums since WE (and I mean the rest who posted) all seem to live the same Robsten-shipper double life!
My friends and officemates know I like Rpattz
but they are gradually getting to know too the Robsten shipper in me…
Oh and fanfics are my guilty pleasure too… that might take longer for me to talk about with my circle of friends! LOL
LOVE THIS POST!
LUVYAH GUYS! ☚
Thank you for your entertaining and ever so truthful post! I'm 30 years old, the mother of one, a highly educated professional, and the wife of a man who has a relatively high-profile job in his niche of the finance world. And I too am a closet Robsten shipper.
I added Twilight to my Netflix list on a whim months after it came out on video, and I hesitantly watched the movie. Then I fell in love with the books, Robsten, and FanFic. I never mentioned a thing about Twilight or Robsten to anyone, until I suggested that my older sister watch the movie. I was so happy when she shared my love for the story and, more importantly, she became as obsessed with Robsten as I am. We often text each other throughout the day about Robsten news. Once I mistakenly texted my husband instead of my sister about Robsten (thankfully I never said the words "Robsten" "Rpatz" or "KStew"). My husband responded to my text with, "Um, not sure you meant to send this to me, but I have a feeling it has to do with Twilo." (That's what he calls Twilight). My husband lovingly teases me about my interest in Twilight, but I think if he knew about my obsession with Robsten, he would, honestly, be freaked out. So glad that I can bond with my fellow shippers on-line. Thanks for the awesome post and website!
Oh RL .. ILY .. You are not alone dearie. It seems a lot of us are living this double life
It IS hard to keep this addiction to myself. I thank God for robstenlove.com for giving me a happy place 
Awesome post!
Oh, girl. This is so my life. You know it's bad when you're already planning your disguise for the midnight showing of Eclipse…
oh RL i thaught just i am keep my Robsten love to private so everybody feel the same???…LOL but to my family i try to open, but to my friend not anyone know my addicted to these adorable couple, maybe my friend think get your real boy friend, Relationship, since i am 34 single woman…but i'm happy with my life surrounding my fam, friends and robsten supporter..LMAO
I m glad to know others are like me in my obsession, My DH knows but not the extent. My sister is the only one I can fan girl with and even then she's more of a Twilighter than a Robsten addict.None of my friends know of my Robsten/Twilight world and I'm ok with that. I love all of my fellow shippers.
Elisa aka RP/KSaddict
Oh how I can relate to you. No one in my family, friends, or work know of my obsession. And I'd like to keep it that way. Some know that I read the books and appreciate the movies. No clue about my love of Rob and Kristen. Haven't been this obsessed with anyone or anything since HS.
Your story is MY story (2). I´m from Brazil and anyone here know that I´m a shipper. I have a different nickname to use, a different email, twitter, just for Robsten. My husband only thinks that I´m a twilight fan. Poor man. hehe
this could have been written by me! my husband know I love twilight and I have told him I check blogs about it every day, but if he knew I read vast amounts of fanfic, have a secret twitter and 1000 of pictures on my laptop – he would think I am NUTS. I am actually part of a mailgroup in my country for twilightfans, aorund 10 women in their 30s, but I have realised they are mostly into the books and not into robsten, I feel a bit like freak writing THEM about rob and kristen…
but I LOVE Robsten! they are such cool, nice, smart, beautiful kids and I wish they could stay together! <– see? who could I say this to without sounding like a tool when I in RL have kids, husband and work at a business magazine??
Also I want to add this, I LOVE this clip so much:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLHUdg7z1O8
This was brilliantly written and I relate to every bit of it. I am finding myself similarly entrenched in a double life and am starting to finally just say screw it and slowly outing myself to those closest to me. My husband just knows about my "stories" as I call them – he has no idea how dirty they may or may not be. I like having something to myself for all the reasons you stated. Some of my friends are similarly preoccupied but they would die if they knew the extent of my devotion to these two. Oh well. That's for writing this and for being a part of this great place.
I LOVE YOUR POST! I totally relate! I'm in the medical field and instead of treating patients I'm teaching people to be doctors–when I'm correcting the patient notes written by my students and inputing them into the laptop, you'd see tabs on the top of my window with robsten love forum, twilighted and fanfic…but I make sure that no one else sees my screen and I switch users when my laptop's idle. It doesn't help that my screensaver is the HB photoshoot and my desktop display is the "robsten VF kiss" picture and when I got busted by a colleague, I said that my teenage daughter put it on and i am inept to change it–when he offered to "correct" it I rejected it and made a lame excuse of my daughter getting "offended" because she likes "that rob guy" too much…funny thing is my daughter abhors anything twilight! although I have a feeling that she's aware that i use her as a scapegoat…
thanks for writing this entry and i'm noticing that it's getting mighty crowded in the "robsten closet"…but there's no other place i'd rather be!
I am a mom to four and completely in the closet. My husband knows I like Twilight Saga but would DIE a thousand deaths if he knew the "shipper" bit. Honestly, I think we need to form a support group-
I feel I have identified I also am fanatical secret Robsten … greetings from Spain